Post Exam Post

So here I am, a week after my exams have ended and there has been no epic post, no song, no sorrow, no jubilation. I don't know, but the concept of "holiday" didn't wash over me like I had expected it would and like it did with some people I know. I think it has to do with the fact that I unofficially started my holiday in the last few days of the exam, because I didn't need to worry about my final paper.

Okay, so here's a quick summary: I wrote five papers (four distinct subjects) in three days in the span of one week. Maths I already spoke about, the first computer science paper was a total thumbs up, the second one was utterly horrible and applied maths paper was... enjoyable. I know for a fact already that I have passed half of my subjects. Concerning the other half: one I wrote well enough to be totally confident about, one had a little hiccup but I feel okay about it and I am totally shaken by that last computer science paper. It wouldn’t surprise me if I failed that exam. I would seem strangely fitting: the final kick in the groin that causes me to cough up blood as I lie naked and ashamed on the wet ground while the world passes me by, not stopping to look or to care. So, yeah. Luckily we get our official results yearly in December this year, so for once my agonizing ignorance won’t be prolonged for much longer.

But that’s not what I want to talk about. That was all a week ago and, yes, feels like a month ago. I don’t really know what I want to talk about. I’m not sure I want to talk about anything at the moment. Everything is stagnant and suspended at the moment. Friends are scattered or still busy with re-examinations and the world still continues to function. It’s like adjusting to a new environment, but doing so quickly, like realizing what’s going on as you’re sinking in a pool after being dropped in it by surprise. Wow, I really have this non-sense thing nailed down; I really shouldn’t be allowed to write when I’m tired. For the past few days I’ve been getting very tired very early and I don’t know why. My right lower arm is hurting like mad. It use to be only my hand, but now it’s the arm. It started a few months ago. If my suspicions are correct, then I have a chronic condition which is really going suck considering that I am going into the business of programming professionally. Ugh.

I don’t know when in the week Wunderseun is coming down or even if he is here already, but he better hurry up. I need extra reason and motivation to get out, because my car is being loaned to family and I’ve been home locked for the entire weekend. Getting slightly frustrated. Heh, and the holiday has only started... not that bad yet though.