Two Fingers!

Happy birthday August-Inspiration! Today, two years ago, I started posting my thoughts here. I don't always carry through with projects of this nature, but I'm glad that, after two years, I'm still here and kicking! I don't read other peoples blogs much and I don't really go out into the net looking for them either, but of those that I have stumbled across are rarely past the two year mark, so I'm glad mine is still up.

My celebration is not a big surprise party with lavish decorations and decadent gifts, but rather more like humbly extending a cupcake, with two party candles on it, out into the direction of where the server is actually situated. At the moment the site doesn't look as good as it should and even though I have made some improvements and revisions, that (this) project is on hiatus as university as fully taken over. One day, however, I'll get it up, but not this August.

The site has already had a few server and address changes with extra content added and removed as I tried (try) to define the paradigm of this site. However, the basic functionality, theme and feel remain the same. Even though I'm working on some major changes for the site, it's all internal and little will change visually. I have no desire at this time to change the look of this site, but I'm not saying that I'll necessarily stick with it for ever.

Its weird how, tonight, I was taken back in past of my creativity. When I was in primary school, I use to think up and draw a lot games (adventure, sport, mystery, etc.) on A4 pages which I will then have any willing classmates play. It was never a big thing, but the creative process, at least, was fun and kept me busy. Because I virtually never throw anything away, I still have most of these games and drawings. Looking at them, I have to wonder if we ever did anything in primary school; the teachers were hardly ever in the class! Ah, so far removed from university... Anyway, I have a 21st on Friday of someone I was at primary school with and the other day she mentioned that she still remembers these games and would like to see them again. Being at a complete loss over a gift for her, I decided to bundle her some of the pages and give that as a present. Hopefully she'll like it, but maybe I should get a back-up present just in case:-P .

Looking through all of these pages and digging for more sent me on a massive nostalgia trip. Luckily it a very deep dig wasn't needed, so I didn't have to go completely back to the future. But it was nice... the last part of primary school wasn't what I would call a particularly happy part of my childhood/growing up, but it also wasn't without its good times.

Every time I dig through old papers of mine, I come across a quote or a piece of wisdom I'd scribbled on a paper somewhere and forgotten about over time. Studying (sciences) at university teaches you how little you really know. You are thought to seek out more knowledge, only to eventually match your tiny knowledge base against the vast enormity of knowledge that is out there. At some point, I guess you start to look at your past, when you where still ignorant of all this new knowledge, with some contempt. However, all these scribbles periodically remind me of what I did in fact know back then and, more importantly, felt and believed. Sometimes I become jealous of who I was then and of who I am now.

Happy birthday August Inspiration; may you someday know the joy of ignorance and innocence!