The Return (2007!)
“A long December and there is reason to believe; maybe this year will be better than the last”.
Every year, after my new year's celebration I return to my PC and play this song. Some might say this is boring, mundane or cliché, but I like to think of it as some sort of tradition now. Sometimes I wonder if, say you've had the best year of your life, what is the point in hoping for a better year? 2006 was not the best year of my life, but I enjoyed it. When I think about the year briefly, two things come to mind: hard work and good friends. I worked my arse off this year. I like to think that I was reasonably well rewarded for it, but I also think of my friends and the good times I had with them. I'm still not a budding extrovert, but what I had I really appreciated and am thankful for.
I must say that tonight was one of the most fun new year's that I've had. Not brilliant, not mind numbingly excellent or any great revelations, but I just had fun. Michelle, some friends and I went to Edward Street in Bellville (bare with me) and looked around a bit until we found a place that was reasonably nice. We had our fair share of drama during the evening, but being on the dance floor with Michelle while welcoming in the new year was really awesome. We really had great fun. Afterwards a couple of friends joined us at our home for a quiet chat and Michelle and I just returned home after dropping off the one friend at his home. Now the year can start peacefully and serene (hopefully all I had to drink during the evening will contribute to the latter).
So, what about 2007? It started fun enough. It once had an ominous feel to it. The day before yesterday I woke up and I suddenly developed this strange urge for closure. Maybe it was the Chicken Little movie Michelle and I had watched, but I rather think that this should be my goal for the year: to tie up loose ends and make amends. I don't consider this a new year's resolution: rather this is something that has to be done, regardless of anything else. This year is also going to be a lot of hard work, but I'm also going to aim for a lot of great fun. In this year, much will sink or swim.
Our plans for going to the UK to visit my brother is again looking to be delayed. Its gotten to the point where I think it can only happen at the end of the year. But, unless I win some prize that will pay off my study loan, I have to start entering the industry at the end of the year. This leads me to think whether or not I should just stay on in the UK after my folks have left and look for work there. This is a scary thought: for the first time, I'm seriously thinking about leaving this beautiful gem of a country. For the first time, certain things seem real and scary. All the more reason to find my closure. My penance. My absolution.
The greatest and hardest thing to expect from a person is forgiveness. I pray that I shall find the strength to forgive and that others will find the strength to forgive me. By no means is this going to be an easy year, but maybe, just maybe, a better one than the last.
To all my family and friends: may Ha Shem protect you on all your journeys and give you strength and perseverance in all that you face. Shalom!
Every year, after my new year's celebration I return to my PC and play this song. Some might say this is boring, mundane or cliché, but I like to think of it as some sort of tradition now. Sometimes I wonder if, say you've had the best year of your life, what is the point in hoping for a better year? 2006 was not the best year of my life, but I enjoyed it. When I think about the year briefly, two things come to mind: hard work and good friends. I worked my arse off this year. I like to think that I was reasonably well rewarded for it, but I also think of my friends and the good times I had with them. I'm still not a budding extrovert, but what I had I really appreciated and am thankful for.
I must say that tonight was one of the most fun new year's that I've had. Not brilliant, not mind numbingly excellent or any great revelations, but I just had fun. Michelle, some friends and I went to Edward Street in Bellville (bare with me) and looked around a bit until we found a place that was reasonably nice. We had our fair share of drama during the evening, but being on the dance floor with Michelle while welcoming in the new year was really awesome. We really had great fun. Afterwards a couple of friends joined us at our home for a quiet chat and Michelle and I just returned home after dropping off the one friend at his home. Now the year can start peacefully and serene (hopefully all I had to drink during the evening will contribute to the latter).
So, what about 2007? It started fun enough. It once had an ominous feel to it. The day before yesterday I woke up and I suddenly developed this strange urge for closure. Maybe it was the Chicken Little movie Michelle and I had watched, but I rather think that this should be my goal for the year: to tie up loose ends and make amends. I don't consider this a new year's resolution: rather this is something that has to be done, regardless of anything else. This year is also going to be a lot of hard work, but I'm also going to aim for a lot of great fun. In this year, much will sink or swim.
Our plans for going to the UK to visit my brother is again looking to be delayed. Its gotten to the point where I think it can only happen at the end of the year. But, unless I win some prize that will pay off my study loan, I have to start entering the industry at the end of the year. This leads me to think whether or not I should just stay on in the UK after my folks have left and look for work there. This is a scary thought: for the first time, I'm seriously thinking about leaving this beautiful gem of a country. For the first time, certain things seem real and scary. All the more reason to find my closure. My penance. My absolution.
The greatest and hardest thing to expect from a person is forgiveness. I pray that I shall find the strength to forgive and that others will find the strength to forgive me. By no means is this going to be an easy year, but maybe, just maybe, a better one than the last.
To all my family and friends: may Ha Shem protect you on all your journeys and give you strength and perseverance in all that you face. Shalom!
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